On learning detachment from a toddler

I feel overwhelmed to know that my 11 month baby will turn a year old instead of 12 months and then a year but what will be, will be. (If it doesn’t seem like a big deal to you, just continue reading)

I have noticed that my almost 1 year old is the most detached person I know. I wish I could learn this from him, If he is playing with a toy, he is completely focused and busy with it until he learns everything there is to learn from it. Once he is done learning, he drops it … or rather flings it without even  looking in that direction and goes on to play with another toy. I am amazed at the way he drops it. He doesn’t even see where it went (much to my dislike though because I have to clean it) and so easily just drops it. I wish I could let go like that. I think it would help me to be more flexible and surrendered.

We have a move coming soon. I am excited but I also know that I am not calm inside and have mixed feelings about leaving this small town of mine. Some people have become closer than family and I know I will be in touch with them because of the wonderful invention of internet but … I am attached and … wish I wasn’t. I am not sure if I really want to be completely unattached… I know things will be good where I go to but…

as of now, the only thing I am sure of is that I am confused.

Hope to get some clarity in the new year.

hope you have a lovely new year.

 

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